Saturday 10 December 2011

I need to learn how to be a bitch.

I think this might be my last attempt at dating. I'll stick to singledom - doesn't actually seem like a choice unless I learn to be a bitch. Bitches always seem to have men vying for them - not just the attractive bitches: thin ones; fat ones; even ones who look less good than I do!

Yet again I had a great date. Everything I could ask for. From what he said it was mutual. We arranged a second date. Then he cancelled - he gave a perfectly good reason, so while I expressed my disappointment that we wouldn't be meeting, I accepted the situation with grace. He would call me, he said, to arrange something the following week. The following week has come and gone and all I have received is silence.

I have left him a message - but it was a calm 'grown up' sort of message. Perhaps I should have told him he is the bastard he evidently is, but then who ends up looking like an hysteric? Should I have been more demanding about meeting up after that cancelled date? Should I have forced him into admitting he didn't want to see me again? Somehow being reasonable just leads people to think they can screw you over because you won't make a fuss, won't cause a scene.

Well here I am making a fuss.